As I have mentioned previously, I have anxiety and face panic attacks on various occasions.
Today, I wanted to write about this topic and how I personally cope with these extra pressures in life.
Anxiety is something I have every day in life and I honestly hate it.
I go into a total panic mode in the most random situations and sometimes completely stupid!
The number of times I have gone into a panic because I have seen someone look at me weird I cannot count using my fingers. I realise now that these situations are silly and I really need to try and calm it.
A big thing with my anxiety right now is how I look as I just do not have the confidence that I would like to have at this time in my life. I am not kidding when I say I have to do my hair at least 5 times before I leave the house as I think it looks really horrible and that I now cannot wear my own clothes with confidence and just feel terrible at all times. I am working on this. I plan to lose a little weight just to get rid of a few pounds that I've gained due to McDonalds mozzarella dippers and pizza.
I also have the tendency to shy away in social situations as I automatically assume that everyone hates me. This is due to the toxic friendships I have mentioned on numerous occasions.
These experiences where I am told that people hate me and where someones brought me down have really affected me over the last few months and I just don't feel likeable anymore.
Luckily for me, I have some of the greatest friendships who help me through times of need... a lot.
The amount of times I have phoned one friend crying is ridiculous!
So to deal with my anxiety, the real, true friendships are key!
Talking is so important for me because if I keep problems to myself I end up overthinking and I become a total panic attack mess.
This will sound silly to some of you but another way I deal with any anxious situations is Singing.
Strange... I know. I like to just take myself out of my bubble of self-loathing and go and sing and I have to admit, it makes me feel 1000x better.
Sleep I feel is also important for my anxiety and I tend to try and sleep more when I feel anxious as when I have hardly slept, I am worse than the usual day to day situations.
Recently, I have also used the app Headspace in times of need.
They have so many different meditation styles and programs which have helped me to calm myself down on a number of occassions and they have really worked.
I recommend this to anyone.
You also get their programmes for free with Spotify Premium and they are just amazing!
So panic attacks are something I really hate talking about as I just don't know how to cope 50% of the time but I am slowly learning. I usually take panic attacks after a really stressful day, during arguments with said toxic friends or recently when I am driving.
This has been hard the last few weeks and months as it has been worse than before.
But... I am coping.
When I take an attack I always text a friend or two i feel are reliable to help and inform them of the current situation where I cannot breathe. They are the best as they sit and try to talk me through breathing and get me back to my calm self.
I also like to lie in the dark blasting Lana Del Rey or slow peaceful music to get me back into the right state of mind.
I have considered going to a doctor to get medication for when panic attacks occur but I really don't like doctors and also I have heard multiple stories of addiction and I really don't want that.
Hopefully removing myself from these situations will help me to lower the anxiety and panic attacks.
I am open to any messages from anyone who wants to talk and I am willing to tell people my stories and more information. I have a contact form below and would love you to message me.
Thanks for reading today!
Ross
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